As I wake up this morning to my fresh brewed cup of Peet's Holiday blend, I find myself thinking about how fast this year has gone by. How fast my family has grown, and how quickly my daughter has aged into a young girl. I think about all the blessings in my life that I could never have imagined before.
Not very many people know about how I grew up, I don't really share it you know. I am sure many of you have stories that are not so wonderful as well. I feel that all the bad things I endured made me the person I am today.
I grew up in a great church most of my youth, surrounded by family and friends. I absolutely loved this group of people. Almost 10 years of my life was spent with them. Until one day a single person destroyed it with deception. The pastor of our church announced his infidelity to all of us and his wife in a sermon. The church was closed and turned into a gym. It took me a long time to go back to church.
Although my faith has always been there somewhere. I always never really let it shine as much as when I was a young girl. I tried more buildings of faith, other religions even, and one after another my trust was dwindled.
Now I only tell you this to share, maybe you have all been through something similar. Something you have always believed in, now soured by the people around you. I do not really vocalize my faith because for whatever reason I seemed to be ashamed of it. Not for any good reason either. God has a way of reeling you back in. For months now I have felt something in my life much stronger than I did before. I knew it was there but maybe it was because I was ready to hear it again that it came so loud.
I want my daughter to have the same chance I had a a child, maybe she will be dealt a tough road as well, but if I do not give her the chance to experience it then how will I know. Today I am thankful for God showing me that I really do need him in my life, as well as my families life. My holiday season will be spent giving back this year, to thank him for the wealth he has given me.
I wanted to take a minute and thank a few ladies for their unknowing support to help me get to this post and have the courage to accept the love that was right there for me all along.
They don't know how much impact they have truly made upon me.